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Pisces Daily horoscope for October 1, 2013.

Actually a pretty interesting horrorscope for me today, as all of the chemicals I have been on for so many years are clearing out of my body and my mind, I have been having some real doozies of nightmares.  They are all about one thing, too, which is really odd; yet, maybe not, because if I really think about it, it’s the one thing in my life that has caused me the most resentment.  I worked somewhere for a very, very long period of time, and I was denied a full time job there because I was an “iconoclast” and didn’t fit in with their image, but it didn’t stop them from taking advantage of my skills (both with the computer and with fund raising, which I turned out to be really good at), and the nano-second I left the job, they filled my position with someone who fit into their little cult-like microcosm and made the position full time.  I never really knew how much anger and resentment I had/have for them until recently, and my nightmares are filled with visions of the entire place imploding, which I DON’T wish consciously, but maybe I do subconsciously. I know I am filled with loathing about another job I had that I gave 200% to and got really f’d up the ass without KY at the end of, and ended up being the catalyst to a major breakdown I had in 2002, but I never knew how much resentment I held onto towards the other one.  The mind is a very powerful thing – pay more attention to your dreams (and nightmares).  I should keep a dream journal – it might help in my therapy.  I should probably, as my horrorscope suggests, just let it go and make room for the new, but I am human, and it’s hard to let go of past hurts and unfair treatments.  Time for some new work on myself, I guess.