It’s Been Awhile

It’s been almost a year since I have written anything on here. I wonder if I should pick up where I left off. Life is not so good; and yet, it’s perfect in the sense that I have a granddaughter now who lives with me, along with her mother (my daughter). My mental health has gone to shit – my physical health isn’t too terrific either. I will think about blogging again. Maybe someone will care.

Another Great Free Book Today!!!!

Another Great Free Book Today!!!!

In the Archangels series – this book has many 5 star reviews on Amazon.

 

Lorde’s sister

Lorde’s sister

Cover song.  So beautiful.  Say something.  The lyrics…..

Depression

Depression

Just read it.  It’s all true.  I spent 14 hours in bed today.  I am PANIC stricken I have to go out tomorrow and Thursday and can’t get out of it.  Imagine when I have to move?  I have to figure something out. I don’t want to go to the projects.  I don’t need to be taught a lesson by my mommy – I’m 51 years old for fuck’s sake!!  Just stop!! Haven’t I been through enough lately?  Please…

Disability denied.  More info wanted. Hearing set — 10-14 MONTHS from now.  Backlog she said.  I could be dead I said. She said yeah. I didn’t say anything. 

The New Uncanny

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The New Uncanny

Spare me.

A Vampire’s Christmas

Ben Prescott hates Christmas—he’s a vampire, and to him, there’s certainly nothing jolly about the holiday season. While the humans are running around being merry, he’s hunting in the shadows. Ben plans to spend the holidays his way…by stalking deadly prey. 

But fate has other plans for Ben.

Three visitors are coming Ben’s way…A demon who will force Ben to face his past, a ghost who will show Ben the present he could have, and a shifter who will reveal the darkness that waits in Ben’s future. Unless Ben can change his ways, he may just turn into a real monster, one who can’t be saved by anyone or anything.

‘Tis the season…to be undead.

Ben’s redemption rests in the hands of the one woman he loved and lost—Simone Laurent. If Ben is going to have a chance at being more than just the beast in the darkness, he has to prove himself to the lovely Simone. A very hard task, considering that, once upon a Christmas Eve, Simone died in Ben’s arms… 

Warning: This book features one very tortured vampire, a sexy ghost from his past, and hot scenes designed to melt the winter snow. Plenty of action, adult situations, and steamy times are ahead. Happy holidays!

 

 

Frustration and LOTS of PAIN

OK – I know I have been slacking since my surgery, and I still will – I need more sleep.  I fucking hurt.  No two ways around that.  Rip me open, rip out some shit that has been holding me together – literally – for 1/2 my life – accident happened 10/88; it’s now 11/13. 26 years of my almost 52 years on the planet.  And I hurt even more because of yet another round of false promises.  Makes you feel good when you make them. doesn’t it?  All altruistic and kind.  But when I call and say “Can I please?” or maybe “Are you possibly please going” and you get shot down each and every time, you wonder why they even bothered in the first place.  No, Omi – not about you.  You I haven’t tried…♥  But basically – a big Fuck You to Lip Service.  I can’t walk.  Not for 3 weeks.  Wow.  This is gonna suck out loud!!  Maybe you will get sick of me writing.  I know I am sick of all of your bullshit lies.   

Blog Tour – Coming soon!!

Save the date!! November 19th!!!

Dear Ted

The complete set is available. This is real horror. This is not a work of fiction. 

The horror feels never ending and on top of that, though it ends physically after too long a time, it doesn’t end entirely. The author could continue his life story, his now phantom abuser in the shadows of his mind and soul, urging him on to self destruction. 

But this man, to me, is no ordinary man. This man reminds me of what happens when angels are born in hell. Though he bled and cried himself to sleep many nights, there is a light in him that refuses to go out. And I believe that light will win out the darkness in the end. 

If you decide to read his story, please know that by doing so, you’re not indulging in his suffering, but learning from it. Yes, there is a lot to learn in it, if you apply yourself. I don’t normally do horrific tragedy, but in this case, I think we need the scars this book puts on your psyche. These types of scars move us out of our comfort zones and into the kind of action we might not otherwise take if a situation presented itself. 

So. Happy Halloween.

 

 

Eclipse

Someone was asking how this could affect any magic done tonight. We have just gone through the eclipse. How are you feeling? Ruby )8(

FULL MOON & LUNAR ECLIPSE (Penumbral) at 25deg45 ARIES 19-October -2013 – 12.38pm – Wellington, NZ 19-October-2013 – 10.38am – Sydney, Oz 19-October-2013 – 12.38am – London, UK 18-October-2013 – 7.38pm – New York, USA Rise of the Warrior Princess I’d like us all to think back to 8 years ago. To October 2005. When the last Lunar Eclipse in Aries occurred, within a couple of degrees of today’s spot. Much has changed in these last 8 years. The world as we know it has moved on, we as we know ourselves have moved on. Most of us have changed, most of us have grown, most of us have a number of life experiences under our belts today that make us who we are right here right now – and who we are going to continue to be. But we are not that same person that we were 8 years ago. Aries Energy is a champion’s energy. It’s a pioneer’s energy. It’s an action-oriented move-forward-and conquer-the-world style energy. Lunar Eclipse energy is all about reaching culmination points, closure points – and change, often created from within us. The culmination and illumination comes courtesy of the Full Moon and the change courtesy of the eclipse. In Lunar Eclipse energy, we are often the change, whether it feels that way or not – usually as a result of a door closing. Because in order for a new door to open – and emotional growth to occur – often another door needs to close. Or is closed for us. Which circles us back 8 years, to another Lunar Eclipse which occurred oh so close to this point. That Lunar Eclipse was a North Node Eclipse – so our changes were about looking forward, taking the bit between our teeth – and running with it. Possibly the Birth Of The Warrior Princess. This Lunar Eclipse however is a South Node Eclipse – which suggests that this particular growth phase may now be complete. The cycle has culminated. The lessons have been handed out – and have been taken on board. There has been much growth. Some pain. Even loss. But now we are ready to move on, to drive forward, to forge new paths and to create new cycles. It is time for the Rise Of The Warrior Princess. Full Moons are highly emotional times because our two luminaries stand opposed – the Moon vs the Sun. Our Soul vs our Ego. The added intensity of an eclipse has the potential to make this time even more emotional, more powerful – as does the energy behind it all. Uranus and Pluto square. Eclipse Ruler Mars in Mercury-ruled Virgo (a placement I referred to earlier as the placement for Generals). And Mercury, in mutual reception with Mars, stationed retrograde. The Moon/Sun opposition in this case occurs in the last decan of Aries/Libra – the Me/We Axis. And in order for any productive, functioning and positive We to occur, Me must be Whole. Active. Complete. A most powerful lunation (feminine) happening in Aries (masculine) – bringing the two halves of us together – the strong, feminine energy in the masculine environ. The Rise Of The Warrior Princess. We will all have different interpretations for this process. Male energy may approach it differently to female energy. For men it may be about finding power within their feminine/intuitive side – and recognizing there is no weakness but rather strength from that illumination. For women, it may be a rise in inner strength, inner drive, a true emotional potency and power. And liberation of sorts. Most affected are those with planets/angles/chart points 23-29deg Aries and 24-28 degrees of fellow Cardinal signs Cancer, Libra and Capricorn. Also feeling the potency more acutely will be those with planets/angles/chart points 25-27deg of fellow fire signs Leo and Sagittarius, and sextile signs Aquarius and Gemini. There is some particularly strong feminine energy available right now, culminating with the eclipse in less than an hour. Strong, driving energy which may feel volcanic at its most eruptive – or simply sublimely powerful. I will look to recognize this energy, embrace this energy – and run with this energy. I will look to recognize and appreciate who I was 8 years ago – and I will look to recognize and appreciate how far I’ve come, who and where I am now – and where I am headed. And I will embrace my Inner Warrior Princess, let her rise, let her shine. Happy Lunar Eclipse, Sparklers