Pisces Daily horoscope for October 28, 2013 – Grappling with Health Concerns

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Albany, Albany Medical Center, Dreams, Evergreen B & B, New Jersey, Pisces, Psychology, Taylor Ham

Pisces Daily horoscope for October 28, 2013.

Yeah – that’s pretty fucking funny.  I’m afraid I’m going to die, I am off to Albany Med for pre-admission testing (if i can find parking) alone, and then I am going HOME.  To NJ.  I don’t care HOW long I have lived up here.  NJ is my home state – flawed as it is and I am.  Taylor ham and cheese baby, the ocean, Laurie Daurie, good food, a damn good cry, lots and lots of swearing and flipping people off – oh I can’t wait.  Get me the fuck outta here!!

October 28, 2013

1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

    

   When you have some downtime today, you should make the most of it. Duck out of reality and step into your fantasy life for a little while. Get back in there and fill in some blanks with new goals, new dreams and new faces. Dream about where you’ll be in ten years. Fantasize about who you will be with and what you will be doing. Putting energy into your fantasies will actually help make your reality a little more clearer. Daydreaming will help your day go by.

2. Yes, that’s right, Ame, this is exactly how things look just before your life blasts off… Houston, we have ignition – The Universe If I were you, Ame, I’d start thinking about updating your TUT profile and your future. It’s in the bag.

Pisces Daily horoscope for October 21, 2013 – Visions

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Dubai, Outer Mongolia, Pisces

Pisces Daily horoscope for October 21, 2013.

Ha!!  If I followed every vision I had I’d be in Dubai or Outer Mongolia at the moment!!  Gonna try to get some things together and mailed to Erica, try to decide whether or not to say Happy Birthday to someone somewhere else other than FB and contemplate running to see Carloni, which means a long time in the car BUT really good people and food.  What to do what to do….the shore beckons me.  I need to see the ocean before I have surgery, I know this.

Then this?

October 21, 2013

1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

    

   Right now, you have your hands full — full of secrets. Secret meetings, secret admirers and secret conversations. And while the ‘secret admirer’ part doesn’t sound too bad at all, you’ll have to be careful with the rest of it. There’s no one more trustworthy than you, and no one more compassionate — that’s a proven fact. But little does the rest of the world know how passionate you can be. So be cautious. Don’t step on any toes.

Pisces daily horoscope for 2013-09-30

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Horoscope, Pisces, Sears

You can go nearly anywhere the winds of your imagination carry you now as you surf a powerful spiritual wave. Mercury disperses any resistance to your thoughts as it moves toward trining your key planet Neptune. Messengers may take the high road, but…

via Pisces daily horoscope for 2013-09-30.

Then there’s this one:

September 30, 2013

1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

   Does your wallet need to go on a diet, or is it starving all on its own? Money issues can create a huge amount of stress in your life, but you can get away from them, at least for twenty four hours. If you are worried about finances, today is a day to take a break from it all. Get together with a good friend and go off and do something that is fun — and free. Take a walk, bake some cookies, or play a board game together. It won’t take much to entertain you, and you’ll start smiling again

Yeah – that’s me – baking freeking cookies.  Too bad I have to go pay rent, use up my gas points before they expire and return my boots to Sears for the 2nd freekin time – at least this time it won’t cost me the gas and time to go to a store they told me to go to, only to find out it wasn’t correct.  At least they made up for it with free shipping for the return.  I am big on good customer service.   😀

Gorgeous weather up here – more like summer than almost October.  I just wanna go for a cruise with the sunroof down and the tunes cranking.  Maybe I will.  Why not?  YOLO!!!!!!  *smacks self for even saying that*  LOL!!!!!!

Pisces Daily horoscope for September 19, 2013 – FULL MOON IN PISCES

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Astrological sign, Eastern Time Zone, Full moon, Moon, Nebraska, Pisces, Planets

Pisces Daily horoscope for September 19, 2013.

It’s a Full Moon in Pisces!

Blessed damn relief from the freekin fiasco that was yesterday’s clusterfuck.  I don’t know if it could have gotten any more screwed up if it tried!!  I get to the dentist – they do the deep cleaning on the left side, and then the hygienist comes in and says we are going to do the two extractions right now.  Okay – my brain is drugged, but not drugged enough to say “OH NO – Dr. Whatever His Face Is said he was doing one more filling, then the deep cleanings, and the extractions were the LAST thing he was going to do!!”  Panic sets in – then I realize I a) did not turn off the coffee pot at home, and b) did not take my lunchtime meds, which consist of something to keep me a little calm and my pain meds.  So there is NO WAY IN HELL you are ripping two teeth out of my head with no pain meds in me!!!!  No.  Not even a remote possibility!!  So Dr. What’s His Face (I can’t remember his name – it’s Khalifeh or something like that – nice guy) comes in, glares at me (screw you too, sweetie) and says we will do the filling and next time, after the deep cleaning on the other side, we will do the extractions – OKAY?   I smile sweetly and say “Fine – I will be ALL prepared for that for the next visit – I will meditate, medicate and do whatever else I need to do to get through that.”   I them bat eyelashes, cause that usually works on men.  It did.  He calmed the F down, did my filling, made sure he reminded me 800 times to get a clearance form from my ortho after my ankle surgery so he could work on me, and off I staggered to the car.  Oh my Gods!!  I went to the PO – thank you Beneful for sending me enough samples to feed my dogs for a week – got all my stuff, came home, ran to the bathroom, shut off the coffee pot, threw my pills  down my throat and off I wen in search of a fax machine.  I live in a VERY small town – so small we don’t even get out mail delivered; we have to pick it up at the post office.  So I got to the $ store, get AAA batteries for my menopause hair shaver for my face (freekin menopause), then go to the library to fax the 4 sheets of paper I need to fax to somewhere in Nebraska (I need $ for my tires, so I am raiding my IRA’s).  She tries 4 times – error message on THEIR end – won’t go through.  She says go try Town Hall at the end of your road (I TOLD you this was a small town – everyone knows everyone).  I get back in the car – there is NO WAY I should be driving – go the back way to the Town Hall, and the really nice pretty young woman who works there says let’s give it a shot.  She throws the papers into the fax machine – nada.  She says let’s give it a few minutes – sometimes this happens. So I sit and watch her multitask like I have never seen anyone do in my entire life – it was amazing (especially because I was so loopy) and after a few minutes of beeps and boops and buzzes, she announces it didn’t go thru – it was a problem on THEIR end, and I should try tomorrow.  So I go home – NOW I want a damn drink so bad I could taste it – I’m frustrated, pissed, my mouth hurts, I NEED that fax to go through – I WANT A DRINK!!!!!!!!!!  I get online, I email my “sober coach” (for lack of a better term), I tell her what has happened the whole day between the author shit, the missed cardiologist appointment, the double dentist appointment, the failed fax and the fact that I would love to go buy a bottle of nice crisp cold white wine and guzzle it out of the bottle – she says NO!!!!!!  So I do the next best thing.  I put on my jammies and go lay down on my bed, immediately followed by all the animals.  I am surrounded by purring cats – do you know how cathartic that is (notice that word starts with CAT)?  I immediately calm down and become at ease with things, and slowly drift off into a peaceful slumber, with the vibrations of the purring helping me to just relax and let all the pent up anger and frustration and fear fade away, and I finally fell asleep, not to awaken until 9pm or so, which was fine.  A bit late to eat dinner, but I picked at a pre-roasted chicken I had in the fridge, which also fed all the voracious beasts attacking my ankles!!

This morning, I will teach myself how to scan that damn document into my printer and email it off that way, so I don’t have to go wrestle with any more machines, and will enjoy the peacefulness and solitude of the day – and I wish you the same!! ♥ ♥

Pisces Daily horoscope for September 12, 2013 – THERAPY!!

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Chaka Khan, Donation, EBT, Facebook, Humor, PayPal, Pisces

Pisces Daily horoscope for September 12, 2013.

And now for another one…

September 12, 2013

1. Pisces (2/19-3/20)

   Things have been going very smoothly in your life lately, and it’s mostly because you have done so much good work to make it that way! You deserve a chance to relax and enjoy it, but you should also be mindful that you don’t turn your brain off. Living on auto pilot will be very dangerous for you right now. You have to be aware of your life, of the things you do, and the people you relate to every day. Letting your mind wander is fine, letting your mind sleep is not.

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So.  Today is my first day of therapy with my primary, as I am now “in the system” but by the time they get around to getting me one, I will be getting my left leg sliced open and having all my bionic parts switched out for new improved one!! HA! I love new technology.  I guess this means ANOTHER day without makeup, as the tears will flow copiously, and honestly, waterproof mascara is a bitch to get off.  So I go to the dr’s, do my thing, get in the car and apply war paint and head to the store, since I just got my monthly EBT allowance – YAY FOOD!!  MUST. BUY. VEGGIES.  I can throw them on my sandwiches if I have to, but I must eat more of them!!  I also have to work on my author tour, and I won a contest from a friend yesterday (a GORGEOUS handmade earring stand that will be black and silver to match my Glamorina self), so I have to get going on my contest entry, which was to visit and talk to men at the NYS Fireman’s Home in Hudson and get some stories from them and write about them.  I am sure a lot of them do not get many visitors, and I am also going to try to get up to the VA in Albany to get some stories up there.  Anyone want to throw some cash in my PayPal tip jar on the home page so I can get a small recorder to record the conversations? *bats eyelashes* I am also going to ask for one on Freecycle, as well as a kneeling kind of cart that I will need after my surgery and that my insurance will NOT cover.

I guess I will have to talk about my mother and my “issues” with her – abandonment, why she feels she has to put me down to make herself feel better, etc.  I have, all my life, either been thrown out of hers, or thrown her out of mine, and I don’t want to play this game anymore.  I am 51 – she is 72 – she is NOT going to be around forever, and I do NOT want anything to happen to her while we are still playing our stupid “game”.  Her partner – who is a therapist – knows it’s not ALL me (part of it is because I am newly sober) but it is mostly her (my mother).  Someone asked me the other day if she wasn’t my mother, would I want her there after my surgery and I said “Hell no – she’s a bitch!!” before I could stop myself (I have a bad habit of talking before I think – I am working on it).  But on the other hand, she IS my mother – the only real, blood mother I have – and I do love her, and the little hurt girl inside me only wants her mommy, but the big girl who I am now knows that my mother is flawed, and has issues with me and it’s just one big giant conundrum and I don’t know what to do.  Why does everything have to be so fucking difficult?  My daughter seems to have no problems dumping me at the hospital and not coming to see me (God MOHM you were only there a day – I came to see you when you got home *eyeroll*), so why am I so obsessed with needing someone there after surgery?  Moral support?  Love?  Hand holding?  I know I can do it by myself – I also know my Pookie Aaron will come at some point – I don’t know.  So many issues, so little time.

All I know is the weather has been FUBAR – I am leaving yesterday, pulling out of the driveway – the temp. in the car says the outside temp. is 94 and I see a heating oil truck making a delivery to me in front of the house!!  I laughed my shrinking ass off all the way to the dentist (as much as I could, seeing how drugged I was).  Thank the Goddess for dry shampoo, so I don’t have to spend time trying to wash this mane of mine in a rush AND in humid temps (I do NOT rock the Chaka Khan look very well) and that my doctor is so close.  I am out of bananas and spinach and something else – I will take the Price Gouger flyer with me, or look at it before I go and see what’s on sale.  I also have coupons I haven’t had a chance to look at – maybe I should do that now.  Every penny counts!!!!

Okay – everyone wish me luck, and I will let you know how it went later!!  Light and Love!! ♥ ♥